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i have never felt so much regret in my life. i just lost the best thing ive ever had in my life. i lost everything i have ever wanted in a girl. i was so happy. i made the biggest mistake of my life and for no reason. i didnt get anything out of what i did. it meant nothing to me. i barely even remember it. i hate myself right now. i regret being immature and not moving on. i was changing, just not enough. i had everything i wanted. it was the best times of my life. i still cant believe its gone. i have fucked up so bad. i would do anything to change this. im sorry i hurt you. im sorry. you are so amazing. i honestly do love you. i messed up so bad. im sorry.
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[02 Sep 2005|10:13pm] |
cameron likes boys.
♥apes
PS- UM sucks
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[21 Aug 2004|03:55pm] |
nat
loves
her california hottness
oh so very much
IF YOU LOVE CAMEY LEAVE A LITTLE MESSAGE
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| summer is over :( |
[15 Aug 2004|05:19pm] |
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wow....what a summer, it was AMAZING! sooo many good times. i cant even remember the beginning of the summer at all except for a good start at phils house :). haha. wasted alot of sleep time by goin to football every mornin and i ended up quittin. alot more hang out time this summer, more study time, more fun :)
friends cant get better then what i have. i woke up every mornin knowin im gonna be hangin with people. jeremy bryan and rory mainly. but also hung out with new people...april (regular), kerri, kristin of course, ana, phil, david, emily, nico, nat, cata, vivi, lloyd, greg, joe. <3 love those people, sexy sexy people.
most of the summer was just sittin around with jeremy rory bryan april and kerri sayin "what are we going to do"...lol didnt do much. i got so bored once that i sprayed adidas deodorant down my throat and ended up throwin up for 20 min...lol it was funny as hell. hung out with andy and alex a lil bit. alot of hangin out and parties here and there made for a very good summer. this has been my favorite summer :) thank u.
lol i suck in texas hold em. the last 2 weeks of it have been fun though. i won one $30 dollar game, but lost more than i won. o well. got to hang with alot of people.
lol thank u to emily and ana listening to my drunken self cry for hours at andys lol. as for jeremy and april "dont look" lol. lol i confessed my love for jeremy on 4th of july. lol funny stuff. ana and emily r greatness, glad im a lil closer to them now. <3 lol and jack is a cool guy 2. :)
icould finally drive this summer 2 :). always good. im gonna miss people who r goin to college. alex and niki. i love u 2, ur cool people. and il ltalk to u guys this year still. ooo and alex can skateboard lol.
summer ended pretty awsome at my house. lots of people, good party. lol drunken people everywhere with my mom there and i got in no trouble, couldnt get any better. lol i had fun.
well summer was amazing, the best ever, thank u to the people who made it possible. i love u all. i hope u love me 2 lol.
WHAT DO U REMEMBER DOIN WITH ME IN THE SUMMER?
<3 cam
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[11 Jul 2004|01:26am] |
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SUMMER IS GREAT! I LOVE EVERYONE!
<3 camey
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[07 Jun 2004|10:33am] |
hi haven't updated in a long time. Because I am a lazy hoe bag! I like boys.
Boys are cute.
The bell just rang.
I love kristin
Kaitlin is hot
Ummm James Dean is my idol...
Bye everyone!!!!
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[29 Apr 2004|07:18pm] |
hey, bout to go to do hw with lil b, massive english test tomorrow but its friday so its all good.
POST ME SOME MEMORIES, I DONT CARE, JUST POST ANYTHING U REMEMBER OF ME\
later
<3
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[12 Apr 2004|01:26am] |
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its monday, 10 months for me and fatty. :) i love her.
we = "so happy together"
<3 camey
ps. almost a year
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wow, today was horrible. i was perfectly fine, feeling good when i went to sleep but then i woke up at 2 in the mornin and felt pretty bad and couldnt go back to sleep. then at 5 i threw up blood. it was alot of throw up and lots of blood in it to. so i went to the emergency room and they had to do test on me.
test = the worst thing in my life. 1st they hooked me up the iv and took some blood. then they said they had to check my tummy for blood. to do this they had to stick a tube into my nose and push it into my tummy. the most painful thing ever. i was shakin and sweating, wanted to cry, the father they pushed it down the more i threw up. it hurt so bad, it was hard to breathe. they had to put air into my tummy and then a bottle of this liquid and then they had to take it all back out. it was 30 min of hell. i am now the king of deep throating though. from my nose to my tummy. i wanna c someone beat that.
after that i just laid there hooked up to the iv and then got some x rays takin. they didnt find anything. if it happens again i have to go to some special doctor for another test. i left there like at 430 and finally went to eat for the 1st time at shells with rory my mom my sis and my g ma. i cant eat red meat, have anything red, or have chocolate, or anythin fried until i feel better.
hopefully ill be fine for spring break. im ok now but really tired, ive been up since 2 in the mornin. bed time is early tonite.
kristin is the best gf ever! she brought me a bag of twix and i feel better card :). made me happy even though i cant eat the twix yet. lol i love her! ::kiss::
<3 camey
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| shake it like a salt..... |
[23 Mar 2004|08:05pm] |
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ha....i love shakin it. im sooo good at it 2. get that dirt of ur shoulders! ha. i love dancin. ::shakes wat my momma gave me:: im happy. happy is good. stupid midterms are the next two days. thats ok. i dont let it get to me. i dont like bein stressed, i dont think im ever stressed.
that college trip was awsome! soooo much fun. colleges were nice. i think i stood out cuz everyone knew my name pretty quick. FAMU was awsome. black pool partys! thats all i have to say. i could so fit in there. id be loved there. lol.i hope epstein doesnt hate me or anyone else on the trip, lol well maybe the girl i hit in the face with the ball hates me. i was on shamu tv!!!!!! yes! lately ive found some more friends. cata, nico, brittany, kristy, and then on the trip i met alex bud. lol bud, thats a funny last name. lol i met some cool people. :) i wanna go back on the trip.
long weekend! holla! hittin up the beach and then some more on spring break. i just wanna relax and sleep in and have fun....be myself....hang with friends...hang with my girl....u kno all the fun stuff. summer is needed. and so is some actual football and not just liftin weights and shiza.
davey....dont get sooo down. dont think as much. just be urself and have some fun. live out these years. <3 :* o yea!
friends are awsome as usual. lol i love u guys sooo much. uh oh....emo moment. lol ok ill stop. friends make me happy.
bye bye
<3 camey
ps. im still shakin it!
nite boys and girls
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i wish i could be better for u, i wish i could give u more......sry
i <3 u
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wow this weekend has been awsome so far. very eventful and fun. alot of laughs.
friday- slacked off in skool and kinda just slept cuz it was friday and i just wanted to get home. there was no football so i was home early. me jeremy rory and bryan went to the batting cages with everyone from USH. havent played baseball in so long. it was fun. those guys r cool. thats a good group. ush and me jeremy bryan and rory. it was hillarious. we went to belonties (sp), the all u can eat pizza place and jeremy was doin me up the ass in the arcade and everyone could c it on the 4 tv's they have in the resturant of the arcade. and there was alot of kids there. some parents complained and they almost called the cops on us. its was like porn. lol we were on the tv. then we follwed fernandez to this girls house. but we got lost ands had to find it on our own. we found out it was in pembroke shores and went everywhere lookin for his car and we finally did. we messed with him and i mooned alot of black chicks. ha. to emd the nite i deeped thoarted a HUGE banana. then i came home and mike was there with HOM and then we went to bryans and talked and went to bed.
saturday-played basketball with rory and jeremy and won the only game of 21. then saw kerri and april and went to the mall with april and bryan after we dropped off kerri. then went to the b ball game. :) amazing. district champs. flanagan played really good and kicked hills ass. regionals next week. defintly goin. i got the teams autograhs. yes! lol then went to kens partay and saw everyone. :) more fun. i saw my kristin today 2. yay. she gotta big butt! lol <3
my friends r the best. retarded.....but cool
byebye
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[17 Feb 2004|08:26pm] |
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yay! tomorrow is my b day!!! lol i feel like such a big boy. big boy cameron is almost 17 and i still cant drive....o well. i can get into R rated movies. woohoo.
this semester is crazy with hw. :( but lots of friends and stuff. eng-eric, bryan, mel, marianne, jesse, and otheres and in math-bryan niki and david and ms cramer is sooo nice. i talk alot in there its fun. my dad already gave me 500 dollars for my b day. ha. i want more stuff tomorrow.
i have football after skool everyday now. thats good and bad. i like football but i dont get to hang out with friends on weekdays. i have to come home tired and do hw. tomorrow is a district basketball game flan v mcarthur/miramar support the skool. 7:30 at flan. im goin w/ rory and jeremy for sure.
this weekend was good. go v-day and good show sunday. eastwood, lithium, and ush. awsome! lots of peopel were there. good to c people except for ana p and kerri.....losers....shouldve gone, missed a good show.
hopefully tomorrow is good :) if u love me say happy b day to me and hug me lol
byebye <3
i <3 u all and i <3 u kristin
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[25 Jan 2004|10:58pm] |
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today i hung out with mike jeremy bryan and kerri. all the coolios. we went to wendys and back to mi casa to watch van wilder. then we played football out front and rory hit bryans brand new mailbox lol. it was hilarious. lol then kristin came over for a lil <3. my friends r awsome! i love them. id do them all 2! lol
yes!!!!!!! football is back. we finally got a coach, he's some college coach from kansas. he coached in college for 26 years and they said he's tuff. im soo happy. i love football. i miss it. im gonna kick ass next year. startin quaterback at flanagan. were gonan make playoffs. all u better go and watch me. lol u wont be disappointed. :)
new classes tomorrow, gonna be cool. i have people in my classes ive never had be4. niki and bryan mainly. awsome shiza. and i have mel "the baby" again in my 1st hour lol. shes cool though.bryan and niki are in for a new experience lol ill see u guys tomorrow!
later buds
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[25 Jan 2004|01:00am] |
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i like that song. lol its catchy. my 6 yr old cuz was singing it awhile ago and now i always sing it.
long weekends r greta. this one has been nice and relaxin but i havent really done much. still fun though
thurs-went to the flan v. dilliard b ball game with rory mike bryan and jillian (sry jeremy). it was an amazing game and flan pulled out the win.
fri- cleaned my room which took awhile but now it looks good! yay. then sat around and went to taco bell and toys r us with kristin <3. that place is fun. lots of toys. i played with them more then the kids did. haha i am the ultimate kid! then i went to bryans and sat there with jeremy from 6-1130 watchin mtv. punk'd and viva la bam. 5 1/2 hours of that. lol it was fun though. me j and bryan always find a way to have fun. we r retarded kinda. rory was at lithium so he missed out. ha.
sat (today)-sat around the house for awhile and then kristin came over and we played thug and sat around. jeremy came over and we sat around some more. he went with brad somewhere and me and kristin ate and then went to kinkos to make a copy of my pic of me with braids :). then we came back and went to bryans . it was me jeremy bryan and kristin. havent seen brad in awhile. me and j tried to teach him quantum physics (light factors, decimal factors, wingspan, etc.) but he didnt get it. lol its not to hard. then the home girls came over. ana p (acp) april and kerri. we jumped the tramp, well me and jeremy did. o and ana p has some kick ass shoes. they r roos and have pouches. lol i want! kerri didnt talk aghain lol. shes so cool when she does talk. lol kerri u need to talk. o and apey jumped with me. fo sho. shes my tramp partner. krsitin is afraid to jump it. awww poor lil baby. lol
well one more day of the weekend and then new classes. tomrrow should be fun. then i get to c new peoiple in classes. but ill have more hw this quater :(. well g nite my homes.
I <3 u all!
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[19 Jan 2004|01:09am] |
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long weekend is soo great. relieves stress and is soo relaxin. i love it
sat.-umm....went to see along came polly with rory bryan and kristin. then picked up jeremy and went to phils. ana also showed up. lol that was fun. headbangers ball and animal planet. and good convo.
sun.(today)-sat around for awhile watched the nfl playoffs. carolina v. new england in the super bowl. intresting. me and kristin went to subway and got 2 subs 2 drinks and 4 cookies for $1.99. greatness. i knew andrew who worked there. then we went to the movies and saw big fish, weird but good. lol i didnt have any money tonite so kristin bought everythin. but dinner was only 2 dollars and the movie tix were 3 dollars cuz she had a 10 dollar certificate. lol when she pays its cheap. grrr lol
tomorrow-dunno but better be fun.
me tired. i had to do chores today to pay for the destroyed mailbox. lol
i <3 u
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| off with the mail box! |
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yay no more skool for awhile. next week will be easy and its a short week and then we change classes. whoop whoop.
lol today was hilarious. after skool me jeremy and rory were throwin the football while bryan skateboarded. we were throwin for awhile and we decided to start goin for bryans mailbox. lol so then i got my turn to hit it and i threw it pretty hard and the football took off the mailbox. lol it just fell to the ground. then bryan startin hittin my mailbox and eventually kicked it off. my mail box by then was crushed and useless but bryans was still good just detached from the post. lol so i stole his mailbox and taped it to my post. so then bryan complained for awhile and i just said ok ill destroy urs to and i beat it with a crow bar. lol so no more mail boxes for me and bryan. fun times.
after that we went to the flanagan basketabll game (me, jeremy,rory, and bryan). they r amazing. they won again. adrian thomas is a beast. he had the sickest dunk today. i almost cried lol. im goin to all their games.
after the game we went back to bryans and sat around and then ordered some pizza. since we just watched a b ball game we wanted to play it. so we played some basketball and ate pizza. then kerri came over. shes a really cool girl but she needs to talk! lol im determined to get her to talk. and we had a class together but i dont kno wat class. kerri is my g. lol. we sat around for the rest of the nite tellin stories and we watched tv. now im home and about to go sleepy.
tonite was good, mucho fun. my friends r great. funny funny people those boys r. they r so cute 2. <3 rory jeremy mike bryan ::kisses:: lol and kerri.
and i love u kristin.
nite
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well the week wasnt to bad. im just extremly tired. had 2 test yesterday but i think i did pretty good on them. not doin anythin today in skool but i mite have to present my project.
long weekend! yay! dont kno wat im doin yet though. prolly just hang out with my boiz. lol I started this community service thing at lakeside elemantary and it kinda sucks. i hate doin that work but i need the hours, i dont think i wanna go to today. ok now im goin to siy hi to some people.
hi berto-cute, hi ana p-sexy, hi ash o lee-cool, hi kristin <3- prettyful, hi amanda-big boobs, hi gomez-yum, hi joe(drum)-hot, hi niki-fat sexy girl (weird), hi lizzy- a g, hi lauren-short, hi brian-silly, hi bryan-little and adorable (i love u), hi matt w-skinny, hi mel-baby, hi marianne-sexy #1, hi emily-sexy #2, hi crystal-my dawg, hi ana h-lol ur butt shows, hi phil-big cuddly teddy bear, hi matt b-lots of hair like me, hes my bro, hi rory-my gay gay love man, hi jeremy-sexy beast, hi april-beauty queen, hi sam-eww, hi lia-color guard?, hi joe w-good dancer, hi anthony-penis man, hi ken-emo dude, congrats with libby, hi eric-lithium! i need say no more, hi kaitlin-my sis, hi kerri-coolio, hi mike-nig, hi david-davy poo!UM, hi matt fern-cute, hi brandee-whitey, hi sachelle-cool girl,
'F' is for friends who do stuff together
'U' is for u and me
'N' is for anywhere and anytime at all here in the deep blue sea
hope to see some of u this weekend, my cell broke so u cant call me :( o and if i didnt mention u i give u the permission to shoot me. lol ok im out
:)
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